Church Camp - Port Dickson

Bags are packed, heart prepared, ready to go for my 1-week 'vacation'.
4 days of camp (3 days to be exact, 1/2 day to travel there and 1/2 day back), what will i hear from the Lord? It is really exciting when you really put aside time for the Lord. Cos you know that this time is consecrated for no one else, with no other agenda but to rest physically and rest in the presence of God.

We packed a few different card games there. Swap, Bang, Uno. Heard that the place we are going is very very ulu, may not even have prata or ramly burger.
Sushin left her dog at a pet hotel today cos she will be with me at the camp. She super miss her dog... Ian had diarrhea, i hope he will be well by tomorrow else the trip there will be bad for him. XM will be going Mongolia on Tues, I believe it will be a good trip for her. Hopefully she do not lose anymore weight there. She doesn't like mutton...

it is 1.30am now. i am very tired but cant seems to put my excitement to rest.
But still I better sleep else my exciting camp may become a flu-ish camp...
Ok. Will update when i get back on thurs. Friday still on leave. Yipee!!!!

My turn to go JAPANing

After Lindy write so so much on her blog on her japaning, I so wish I was there with her!!!

My wish is coming true in July. I am japaning, MY TURN NOW!!!

Planning for holiday is a very exciting experience... Though Lindy says I am crazy to do that kind of detail planning, I am excited looking at my planning spreadsheet filled up with information. Candy says Japan will be super hot in July. She says the sun is like right behind you. Then Japan do not wear spagetti top... We are also going Mt Fuji and Disney Sea, so so exciting... Gab n I managed to get free Northwest air tickets so we are just going to spend our money on food food food... thinking of all the sashimi, shabu shabu makes me drool... (I cant wait til JP, think i will have jp food this week)

Mt Fuji pic from website I am going to scale this mountain!!!

Flowers for me!!!

thank you dear dear for the beautiful flowers.

though i do not have green fingers and the flowers die within a week in my care,

i still love them cos it is from you!!! =)

A very good friday

On Thurs, 1 day before good friday, i was reading my friend's blog (http://pattypat-chiang.blogspot.com/2007/03/saved4areason.html).
This is the part that caught my attention..

" Someone said this before, 'All it takes for evil to succeed is for people to do nothing at all'. All the devil needs to do to succeed in bringing as many people with him to hell is to convince as many christians to do nothing about this precious gift that we possess.To get us to feel nothing, say nothing, and be oblivious to the cries of people who are yet to be saved, not seeing the bleeding heart of Jesus when He sees so many precious ones dying each day without knowing Him as their Lord and King, their Savior and Friend."

I am glad to say that we did not do nothing this Good Friday. It is so easy to tell yourself that you have work hard day in day out and need a break over this long weekend.
It is so easy to sleep til late morning, watch tv thru the afternoon and waste the evening away.
But I am glad we did something so that the Lord's death 2000 years ago did not come to nothing.

The very purpose for Jesus's death to bring life to us. And Good Friday, （耶稣受难日），is the day where Jesus die for us all, even before we come to accept him as our Lord. He die for all not just me but all.

This is the very thing that amazes me til today. His love...

So as I was saying, we had our very first cell outreach party. The response was good with 4 new friends. When Nathan shared the song and Lindy, her testimony, I know the seed of love has been planted in the heart of all.

day 3 in Shanghai - dinner perfected w some great friends...

The people you dine with is far more impt than the food you dine on...

Today's dinner was great... I met up with Patrick, an old friend whom I work wif a long time ago... I guess it is the 'suffering' we share that made our friendship stronger.

Plus some new friends i made this time, (James is a funny & not-so-fierce-afterall guy and Echo whom I just found out that she is younger than me), dinner on a cold, mid-week evening was filled with warmth...

I am so glad... =)

day 1 in shanghai - trace back the familiar nanjing lu

The last time I am in Shanghai was 2 1/2 yrs ago. It is like a familiar (i stayed here for 3 plus weeks the last time!!) yet not-so-familar place...

Today is the last day of CNY, fireworks are everywhere in Shanghai. When I meant everywhere, i meant everywhere. it is like the cracking sound is all ard u and u can hardly turn ard in time to catch them on camera.

The temperature here has dropped by several degrees. Today is abt 8 degree C, tomorrow may go below 5. My face is frozen as I walk along the streets and I am beginning to have stuffy nose now. =( I am excited to be walking on Nanjing Lu again. I am more excited abt meeting my long-time-no-see friends.

Ok going to sleep now in my very nice hotel room and wake up early for a good day!!! (see I got 4 pillows to myself today)

In His Presence

Lyn taught abt being in God's presence in the last bs. How we can tap on His anointing when we are in His presence. Not that I am totally ignorant abt this before my bs, but after that session, i am brought to even greater awareness of His presence. it is almost like you know when u are in and when you are out of His presence. God's anointing power is amazingly great when you are in His presence and when you become aware of this, it is almost like you grow dependant on His power, you know that your own human strength is so limited that you just want to draw from His strength.

I also come into realisation that I only want to be successful by His anointing. Cos I no longer know the success i get using my own strength is 'real' success. Like leading a great worship is no longer a success to me unless God's ministry is in His people. Leading a good teaching in cell is not good enough unless lives are changed!!! I really desire to see God's hand moving in my life!!!!

"Where can i go from your presence?

Under your wings, i take refuge.

You search me deep within my heart

I know we'll nvr be apart.

Everyday, I draw closer to you Lord.

I long to see your face

And hide in your embrace.

All my life, dwelling in your hold place

My heart O Lord, you've change

I'll nvr be the same, nvr be the same."

from song "Refuge"

a good day

i love today.
i got up in time to jog, something i realli wanted to do for a long time but nvr had the discipline.
i went to work, clearing most of the stuff i need to do today
i had a good lunch wif my collegues.
gab picked me up after work and we had a great dinner together.
then we went shopping with all the vouchers we had (means we spent almost nothing yet get to buy stuff!!!)
and we manage to leave orchard by 8pm and reached home at 8.30, giving us lotsa time to relax in front of the tv.
now i am just sipping my wine, watching tv, typing my blog before i head to bed...
wat a wonderful and fulfilling day!
i love today!!!

disappointments

have you been disappointed before?
have you been disappointed again and again?
have you been disappointed, then you recovered, then get disappointed again, then you picked yourself up again, and then again... and again?

i know man will disappoint me, i am all ready to face that, but yet today, i feel like hidding again.

i thank God that i have Him to cling on. else i wouldn't know where to find the strength to pick myself up again, the next time i am being disappointed. i thank God that He is the one i am serving so i know that even if man fails, God never fails.
(3pm)
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(5pm)now i want to thank God for disappointments, cause they will mould me in my character.
No point dwelling in my disappointments, cause it doesn't fill me, it doesn't make me feel better, it doesn't cause me to grow either. ok!!! time to move on!!!!

High price to pay for my carelessness

I lost my camera last Sunday... I left it at Dunman market after my lunch. Though I went back like in 5 mins, it was gone... $700 camera that gab and I bought half a year ago. It just spoil my day lor.
Now i have to go buy another camera. I could have used the money on more clothes, bags, shoes. The loss is like $1.4k... (cos you felt a lost of $700 when you lose a camera, then you have to spend another $700 on a new one). not a logical calculation, but it is a feeling i get lah...

40 days Purpose Driven Life

Church is launching 40days of purpose driven life. i am both excited and worried. i feel it is a make it or break it project... and to make it, everyone must play a part in the whole involvement. it is like a team, if everyone is very onz, it will be good lor... but if everyone is very reluctant to give their time, then there will be no fruits lor...

Anyway, I am going to start reading the book again. I just collected it frm my mum's place.

friends, if u wanna find a purpose in your life, write to me. all of us has a purpose in our life.

Welcome 2007

My new year resolution

1. Put everything back where they belong. My table is in a mess!!!

2. Read at least 1 book every quarter. That's 4 books a year. Abit little but a good start lah

3. Meet up with my cell members frequently.

4. Pray for my cell members weekly.

5. Read my bible daily.

Ok just 5 resolutions now. but these are really huge tasks. esp no. 1. why m i such a messy person? and i must start a system for my drawers and cupboards. magazines say it will help in putting things back and finding things as well.

skydive - once in my lifetime

I have no been able to update for some time. 2 weeks ago, I move my blog to google. Not sure what happen but I was stuck with google in Japan!!! I can't understand any icon. Can't put up any blog.

So what had happen for these 2 weeks...

I came back from Perth and have survived the jump of my life!!! Yes, the very very extreme sport that I will never ever do again - sky dive from 10,000 feet!

I am trying to upload my video clip. Can someone teach me how to do it? Anyway, show u all some photos first of my perth trip ok...

Me and my sky dive instructor

Yummy food on Day 1

Yummy Food on Day 2 (see the steak is bigger than my face...WOW!!!)

@ the gala dinner

Youth Camp 06 - Cross Out

I can only testify of God's goodness in this camp. It cannot be done without Him. Glory to God alone!!

No pics yet. But I will put them up once I get hold of them.

Christmas

Yes of course. I chiong Orchard to get some gifts til 12midnight! You just go through Christmas without buying gifts. Though we told ourselves that we will not spend so much this Christmas, but I believe it is because Christmas is all about giving, God giving his son to us, you cannot resist buying gifts for your friends. The whole town is filled with people getting gifts. There is just this atmosphere of giving during Christmas, an atmosphere that cannot be explained. If you say that's because Christmas has been commercialised, it may seems true but generally people are more generous. Generosity cannot be created yah? Anyhow, I had a great time finding gifts for friends. And once again, I thank God for sending His son on earth this very day.

Sometimes I just feel like hiding somewhere where no one can find me...

I want to hide from all the problems that's before me...

I want to hide from all the people chasing after me...

hai... but i know I can't hide from God.

so it leaves me with no choice but to face whatever problem I have,

face the people I am trying to ignore.

Embrace the fact that there is no hiding before the Lord.

"For the spirit of God is not of fear, but of love, power and self control."

"You are my shield, my strength

My portion, deliverer

My shelter, strong tower

My very present help in times of need."

dedicated to u

heart-felt closeness is not a measure of distance between u n the person, or the frequency u see each other...

why this mushy statement, that's becos I have just return from a week trip, and there are a dozen of people I am thinking of. u just have the feeling that they are really impt to u, to your life.

my hubby, gabriel, is of course at the top of this list. Each time I m away from him and enjoying something, like watching a scenic view, eating a delicious meal, I will be dying for him to come and enjoy that moment together with me. It is like you dun want him to miss out the very thing that brings u joy at that moment. He said the same thing to me as well, when he is on his own trips n as much as I told him to enjoy on my behalf, it is not possible to do it. It is nvr full enjoyment unless you are with the person whom you enjoy the company. I concluded that enjoyment is not only what you do but who you do it with.

i enjoy watching movie with my sisters. it is different watching with them, compared to others, esp touching movies. my buddies n i will enjoy drinking coffee and talking, coffee is like a must even after a heavy dinner. gab n i enjoying dining with rachel n her boyfriend, they are almost the first we will think of when we want to go for dinner. of course gab is the only one who i enjoy doing everything with... ( i hope it is vice versa =P )

I also beginning to believe that i m an extrovert. i love to have people around me, mayb i need them to be ard as well. i can start a conversation with a stranger on a plane. i have nvr watch a single movie on my own, hardly had a meal on my own as well. if i have to be alone, i will be watching tv at home or sleeping. i have insisted i m an introvert until gab told me otherwise. in fact, he say he is a passive extrovert (lazy in another word) n i m an active extrovert. i will always to look for someone to meet up.

back to my initial topic, to you who is closest to my heart, thanks for being close to my heart, part of my world. it really brings warmth n joy to my heart, knowing i have u all.

p.s. if u are wondering if u are the one i m talking abt, yes yes yes, cos this blog will only be read by you. n if u think it is too mushy, haha, bear with me. i m lack of companion for 1 week.

HP Campus in Houston. It is a realli cool place, much like our university campus.

Dinner with my collegues.

Anyway, I am going to be leaving for home tomorrow!!! YES!!! I am just so glad.

Xscapade '06: Cross Out

This is an exciting youth camp. You shouldn't miss out on this!!!
date: 19th -23rd Dec

the haze can't get us down!!! jungle survival!! walk on top of the trees >_<
my dearest friends...

simplicity is complexity. it is complex to be simple.

ironic or whatever you call my title today(in comparison to my blog name).
my dearest friend had just explained my blog name in a very complicated way... have she revealed my deepest darkest part of my mind? I wonder...
she mentioned that at the end of my blog name "it is v simple...", "..." had more to conclusively state my statement as simple, there must be something after that. well, then that's for those who will follow my blog to find out what's after that statement. if stating "it is v simple" truly reflect that things are simple, then i wouldnt need a blog to pour my tots. there will be no interesting things to read abt.
why 'it'? cos i have no idea what is 'it'. but i believe there is a 'it' out there that will fit to this description.

anyway, i m not in my best mood lately. you know the times when you have a v v v heavy feeling in your heart. i m checking where that weight comes from, but i am so busy that i have no time to even pause and think.

starting a blog

i m not such good writer, got C5 for my english, hates to write essay, hmm... why m i doing this? that's probably to tell the world my tots, if anyone ever read...i nvr tot i would start a blog but since others look really interesting, i guess i can give it a try, to see how it is like to pen my tots in an open way, mayb i will discover another part of me, the part of me that can only be found in this website.