i am feeling exhausted today... my body just doesn't feel right or in tune...my mind is drifting in and out of different tots all the time. i can't concentrate. my heart is exhausted today, so exhausted that i dun feel like feeling happy or sad or angry. is it the emotional roller coaster people talk abt that i m facing today?

i think i have tried my best, but mayb it is not-so best or not best enough. sometimes i also think so... i ask myself " are u sure this is the best? you mean u cant do better?" so did i actually do my best? i always look at the good things to keep me going but i cant ignore the bad things happening now...

if i give up now... ok, i dun even want to think abt that... not right to give up... if God didnt even give up on me the many times i think He would...

i m in such random tots. i m tired. i want to take a break tomorrow but it is such a packed day. mayb i shld have all my meeting packed in the morning and then take a half day break.

i feel so useless at times. i m timid at nature i guess, low risk taker. "Be bold!" says the Lord. I hope to be bolder. I hope to be able to step into the lion's den, to go into the burning furnace, to face Goliath. God, help me....